原来

昨天终于看完谈情说案..
其实很早之前，当看到杨怡 和 林峰 在一起的时候
我有想回他 .. 因为那故事我觉得和我之前的那个蛮像的 == 【除了家庭背景这部分啦】
看这套戏之前我以为我已经可以放下他了，甚至想和他做回朋友
可是因为这套戏，我才察觉其实我还很想他

当看到第18集 ，他们两个分手的时候
我想回那天我和他分手的那个时候

我在车哭，心里面真的很想要他回来，很想很想...
我不想面对着一切
我真的觉得好痛苦
分手第一天的那晚上我还梦到我和他还是很好的在一起，一起上班下班，很开心的
突然从梦中醒来， 我立刻就哭了.. 那种心痛的感觉真的好痛好痛
想起..他已经走了，不会回到我身边，不会再有一起上班下班的日子，不可能好像以前那么开心的在一起
哭得真的很辛苦...

我不能呆在家，呆在家我觉得很辛苦，每次一静下来我就很想哭
可是家人在，我不能哭
那几天我就一直出去 ， 出去至少朋友可以陪我，我要哭就哭，要喊就喊

杨怡在戏中每看到他都会想哭.. 真的
我明白她的感受
因为我也是 .. 就连我只是看到照片都会哭



到谈情说案的最后一集
杨怡对林峰说 她每一天都很辛苦，像行尸走肉，出到街上，就想站在马路中被车撞倒
mygod.. 这句话完全是我那几天的想法，生活
那时候的我真的很想冲去马路中，被车撞倒算了
一了百了，我不想面对你带给我的伤害
我接受不了...

我从来没想过自己会那么爱一个人，
好像杨怡说过 ' 我不想的时候你又给我 , 给了我 你又拿走! '
我那时候的想法也是如此
我真的觉得杨怡这角色，感情方面和我的很像 =((
很真很真...

就是这套戏，令我想回你，你的一切一切

原来我还是很想念你
自己其实还放不下，不要说什么做朋友
不可能的其实...


觉得自己好失败
3个月都过去了，
他可能已经遗忘了过去一切
遗忘了我们的曾经
遗忘了我们去过的地方
遗忘了我们说过的东西

可是我还是这样...
可能我在他心目中， 我只不过是一位普通的朋友
一位过客


现在的我已经哭不出了
心有时很不舒服，很痛

可是我真的哭不出了 ， 哭真的好累

frustrated

sch holiday has come to an end
sch is gonna reopen by tmr
which mean
my form6 life has start =(

i dont why ， i just dont feel like going form 6
perhaps no frens ? new environment ?
and . its RPS !!! eww , hate it


however , i cant change it anymore :(

arghh, god help meeee :(


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my hair , my fringe is getting suck
i dont like my fringe , wait and see
i'll cut it by tuesday
musttttt !!!
and now my hair is black in colour already
no more brown colour :(((
sad

feel so frustrated that i'm going back to school life

I believe

Yesterday had a splendid outing with the babes <3
with a MEN joined us , too . hahaha ' should be a kid '
its like long time nvr hang out with 'em
i miss those moments alot alotssss :((
well .. am not going to upload those photo here , u could refer to my fb ' vki yap '

we went to sasa due to the girl , stephy * just recognize her, quite nice 1 ! :) *
she went thr look for something else , we just follow and make fun inside { me and janice }
heehees .
but when i stepped in , it remind me of something
i saw his perfume
lol , i shouldn't stepped in . as i dont want to think about any of his thing again
but i'm happy that i feel nothing :P


anyway ..
the conclusion , i love u guys <3..
wow~

afterward janice fetched me home and she stayed at my house until 8pm ~~ lalala
she too love me until she's nt willing to go home.. hahaha .. just joke :P
supposed that we go night market with kenny and peanut [mr.chris ho] but ... raining non-stop..
so change to yumcha ~~
so janice back to her house 1st...
i continue online until 10pm =.='

thanks to mr.kenny
he fetched peanut, janice , and me
lol. he got nothing to do. tooooo freee ~~

we went yeolde english , lol.
the 2 guys are just so funny and horny. lol * u should knw wat i mean* hahaha

just a simple night outing with 'em , enjoy :)

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4days to go till my form6's life start
i really need my girlfrens support me all the time
form6 life is tough !!! >___<

i believe i can.
lalala ~

Big Big girl

That day my mum told me " ei i bought those exercise book , tie ...blablabla for u already "

suddenly , i was quite no mood
i dont like form 6 seriously . haihs
i dont want repaet the same thing again
wake up , go sch , dismiss , tuition , back home , do homework , online , sleep .
mygod . when i think about it i alr started to feel boringggg .
somemore study in the sch that i dont like ... argh .. kill me

despite i dont like this or that , i still have to overcome it
18years old alr . think wisely plz
u can do it !
somemore just 1 and a half year ... believe in urself :)

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my mind was being confusion lately , cause of something
i dont know why and dont know what to do.
just leave it le . sigh
but i think our frenship had a lil bit change .


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speechless

stay at home , didnt go anywhere .
wat to do , i want my skin fair back !! :'(

i've set a target . i must achieve it !
vki yap ~ u can do it ^^


hmm.. by the way
i was quite boring last night and so i decided to read some of my fren's blog

then i accidently saw her blog's link and i click in .
i read the girl's blog and i realize something ..

i dont know whether its true , but wat i know is once they were couple
......
feel shocked

i was felt shocked not because of realize they were couple but other thing make me felt so .
inconvenience to type here , as long as i know about it

sigh
and speechless.


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headache for the whole afternoon , beh tahan
and now raining heavily , remind me about my ns's life .
i miss it :(

:)

had removed the previous articles , ha
A brand new start
am wanted to be a part-time-blogger :P

fyi , i'm just got back frm NS
i shall dedicate a post for my NS's frens :)
they mean alot to me , they was the 1 who bring me laughter all the time ^^
i did appreciate the time with 'em
time flies , i still rmb the 1st day i entered to the camp.....
.......
will write the story soon :)

k jump to nxt topic
i wanted to have a hair cut / new hair style
but i dunno wat kind of hair cut should i have . scare regret maaa
confusing ...
want to look fresh abit. heehees :P

oh ya, although i didnt gain weight during NS
but my face do look EVEN round than last time
=.=
_ _
O.O

bang wall x10000
WHY fat on my face ??!!!!!
how.. i dunno any exercise about FACE except.. chewing -.-
or slap my self.. haha. *


stop here 1st
still thinking wat style shouldi have to look better and thinner.