2年前，xmas eve & new year eve i was also spent with my lovely friends.All of us was still single,thing still go smooth. I had a very nice countdown night with them.
Last year,xmas eve i was spent with family ,most of frens were not here due to busy studies or spent with boyf.
Then new year eve i spent with them again,was a happy night although i'm the only one single.lol
This year,xmas eve i pass with them again,left out carmen and janice. Carmen need do her revision as her final is approaching then janice went to her boyf's friend house celebrate it.
Although we together,but the feel had changed. Seriously idk why ? My problem ? I just can't get back the same feeling as 2years ago.Perhaps i was still the only one never step forward. Hmm may be ??
Then the coming nye,i have a feeling of fear . I'm fear of i'll face the same feeling,i totally dislike it cuz it ruin my mood and disturb me.
There's nth can destroy me physically but mentally.
May be i'm single ? haaaaa lol may be again ? why can't god give me a prince charming before 2011 end ?? so that he can help me settle it.
Too many ques inside my mind until i dunno how to tell people,i just feel so weird ?
我的感覺是無奈，無助，而不是傷心失落。因為我不懂得要怎樣去解決這問題，我不懂得為什麼會這樣？
也許這兩年發生很多事，我的思想已經不再是17歲的那時候的我。
我知道很多事情不必想得那麼深入..簡簡單單就好。可是這2年所經歷過的事情逼我把每件事情都從很多角度去想。
有句話說的很對 “ Thinking too much, so you always put yourself in a bad mood "
我以前是happy go lucky girl,真的...
現在好像變了老人家，emo girl -.- choi choi choi .
can you let me have a rest ? don't always expect me to be the one who do everything ~ i'm not superlady :)
我有很多很多朋友，可是我不懂我整天覺得自己沒有朋友 /.\ *啦啦啦 開玩笑啦*
其實我很幸運，每次有事情都有朋友在我身邊幫我，和我聊天。
可能我缺乏安全感，才會想那麼多 ：）
我快詞窮，不懂怎麼去表達.. -.-'' 算了~等下越寫越離體...
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