FMS

My long lost fren name Mr.Emo come look for me yesterday. Guess what,it's begin of the month AGAIN.
wtf seriously idk what i had done wrong till he come visit me once in a month , and it does last for few days.

SIGH, don't know why always get stuck on friendship problem.I was always the one who put so much effort in a friendship,i'm not expecting to get back the same as i give out,but at least some caring and respect ?
I just feel my life so miserable now. I damn hate myself.
I know why i get emo easily,cuz i'm greedy.

Once upon a time i was having EVERYTHING, i enjoyed it. now it had gone,so i miss the feeling,i hope i can get back those satisfied feeling,so i keep on demanding for more,demanding for a better life.
Its not my fault isn't it ? WHO DON'T WANT A BETTER LIFE ? not to say better life,atleast have family,frenship,relationship.

Ya i do have family,friendship? half half . Relationship ? damn

A person like me consider as good already as i know out there're far more ppl pity than me.
they got no frens no family no love no everything.
WHY AM I STILL COMPLAINING THIS AND THAT ??? Fckkkkmyself

but i cannot control :(( I think i just lack of sense of secure from everything.
Help me,i don't wanna become like this.Is there anyone can get rid this problem for me ? :((

Why can't i just feel satisfied for everything ?
where are my friends when i need you all ?

sigh,nobody cares.


WORST EVER FEELING.